I can remember when my path in life took an immediate turn from all that I had previously known to one that was utterly turbulent at first.
You’ve likely been there before - humming along, thinking everything is fine but knowing deep inside there is something so much more in life to accomplish - only to receive a universal foot in the arse out the door of that path.
If the complete halt of your current life didn’t shock you into awareness of a greater plan, then I am truly sorry for what you may have experienced shortly after (or are currently experiencing now).
Many of us who are awakening to spiritual ways of living in the physical world are discovering the true essence of pain, suffering, and consequently feelings of depression and/or anxiety.
But fret and fear not! I am here to give you a secret about why this happens… as well as a little insight on what you can expect, if you so choose to embrace what is happening with an accepting and open heart.
This is how it happened for me… in early 2017 on my way to a dead end job that I truly despised as a whole, though I did make good money, I spoke a declaration to the Universe, spirit guides, angels, whatever you want to consider.
I simply put a heartfelt intention outside of myself, out loud, and with true deepness of meaning. What I asked for was very specific, and boy oh boy did I receive.
I said out loud that I wanted to obtain my absolute life purpose, to discover it, to light the fire of passion under it and within it. I declared that I receive all abundance attached with that purpose - the abundance of love I deserve, the abundance of joy I could express, the abundance of money I could use to grow my physical existence, the abundance of peace all other abundance would bring.
But, I added a caveat to this declaration. I declared to be placed on the fast track to this. To rapidly expand, learn, engage, and grow into exactly who I should be in order to allow this reality I deserved to emerge through my total being.
I stated that I would go through anything to obtain this fast track - any amount of suffering, any amount of “growing pains”, and would rise from all failures as a new version of myself with more courage than the previous time.
I want to let you know - I got what I asked for, and it has NOT been easy. It IS easy to say you are willing to suffer, to say you want a fast track. What is difficult is actually suffering. Actually being placed on a fast track.
This is something I want you to realize - suffering, when you know somewhere deep inside of you that there is TRUE potential in an infinite way, that anything you fully apply yourself towards will inevitably bring itself to you, will be one of the roughest parts of your path in life along the spiritually manifested journey.
Some call this period “The Dark Night of the Soul”. Mine lasted for nearly two years… Dark “Night”, yeah right!
You may be wondering inside of yourself why suffering is a part of the process for gaining true happiness when some people seemingly coast through life, never being poked the wrong way much less kicked when they are already broken.
How do they make their life around them so easy flowing, easy going, and (on the surface) absolutely thrilling and happy?
The answer lies in the true desire of the soul. Some people do not desire to know the absolute aspects of the Universe as they journey. They seek more for what is outside of themselves rather than what is inside of themselves.
You’re probably seeking for what is inside of you, seeking to connect wholly with your truest nature - yet you know abundance is something deserved by all as we are all essentially of the same consciousness and connected.
That is the difference in why some suffer before the miracles of life arise and others seem to be blessed on the outside, when truly they are suffering within. They suffer the part of life that you are seeking to truly know - they fail to see themselves as they really are.
Truly, nothing is more miraculous than this. This is a miracle of many many miracles.
I say this because if you are not already suffering, or have not suffered to the bare essence of your soul in the past, then you may be due for some turbulence - unless you are able to fully grasp and internalize some very crucial truths of reality or have some truly unique experiences that open up epiphanies in your soul.
This may not be a rule applied to all, but for most it is a necessary part of existence.
We suffer to experience darkness. Darkness experienced sheds awareness on the miracles of love we receive. The darkness is merely the soil in which our roots dig deeply. The deeper the roots dig, the larger tree we become, the higher and more far reaching our branches expand.
It is a paradox of the Universe and this reality. Dig deep into the soil of darkness, reach high into the sky of abundance.
As you experience pains in life you may find yourself falling into bouts of depression. I know I did. At one point in my life I wanted it to just be over with. I felt like a complete failure. I thought I was a good, kind, loving person? Yet all of this “bullcrap” kept happening around me.
Every time I thought it couldn’t get worse, something else would happen.
Then I remembered my declaration. I realized I had asked for this because of something I knew was mine already, yet I needed to become the person to allow it to emerge around and within me.
I realized that I was actually much stronger through all of the negative spiraling going on around me. I was still safe, still loved, still able to see within myself the seedling of potential simply waiting to be watered so that the roots would continue digging while my tree and branches continued expanding.
I fell in love again with myself. I fell in love with the path towards potential. Realizing that suffering is the beginning of awareness of self, I then knew that joy would be much more appreciated because of this suffering.
Awareness of self brings about the joy of miracles. We only suffer that which we are attached to and lose. When we lose attachment to that which brings us joy outside of ourselves, we gain the opportunity to attach our levels of joy within ourselves.
As we nurture our attachment to our inner love, inner awareness, and compassion through our sufferings, miracles take place.
They begin first as shifts in our energy. We sense grander schemes at work that we are yet to understand. We sense incongruities in how we behave that may be contributing to our sufferings. We sense ways in which we can do things differently that start to override previous methods of living which bring us more energy to nurture our seed of potential.
This self awareness, self integrity, self LOVE grows and in turn so does the Universe grow the abundance of what we deserve around us.
This is the rule of tapping into your undeveloped potential. The rule is that if you know your potential yet have not realized it, then you do not know yourself. You have baggage attached to you, and you are attached to baggage.
This is where suffering comes into play. The removal of these attachments will create the sense of pain and torment.
I say to you now to continue the course and learn more about letting go of your attachments while still being able to enjoy that which you have and are as a person.
Learn to attach yourself to the potential you know is within you so that you can love that potential and allow it to flourish.
Be honest about what you feel is not right for you along the path you truly desire.
But before you can be honest with that, first ask yourself… What path DO you truly desire? I for one know how phenomenal it feels to build this abundance of love and understanding within myself while watching that translate into the life around me.
This is my definition of fulfillment, and fulfillment is the one feeling I desire to own as I pass from this life. I deserve to pass with this as the only feeling within me. No feelings of regret, no feelings of shame, no feelings of hurt.
We suffer now so we do not have to suffer forever. We suffer now so that we can learn and grow from suffering into a place of potential and authentic love. If we do not suffer into learning, we suffer forever.
Take your suffering as a gift. It IS a divine gift. Do your best to maintain compassion within yourself while keeping in mind that your potential will inevitably overcome all of this suffering.
As your potential develops, it transforms the depths of your pain into the blossoming expansion of your bliss.
I truly hope this has helped you today and many days to come. If you desire to overcome your suffering in an accelerated and holistic way, one which will prevent future suffering by giving you the internalized understanding of yourself and your purpose, please reach out to me!
I offer spiritual consciousness coaching to those who know their birthright of abundance, joy, purpose, vision, and passion… and do so in a way that creates lifelong impact within and around them. The first session is free, from there we will learn where our paths will take us!
Much love and many miracles to you from now until forever,